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Sweet Surrender a.k.a. Victory April 16, 2008

Filed under: Religion — amberglory @ 7:34 pm
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I just want to express my gratitude to all my readers who have emailed, commented and called us here in Germany. It has been such an encouragement to know friends, family, and even people we don’t know personally are thinking of us and praying for us.

I was so blessed by the responses I received to my latest post. It seems the more transparent I’ve been with people in the last few years, the more I’ve been able to minister to them. Over and over again, I hear how people express their relief, finally hearing someone say how it really is, letting them know that even people in full-time ministry have the exact same problems, emotions and challenges, but that it never has to end there. Someone I was talking to the other day told me how she wishes she were stronger, never again to question God’s faithfulness or to stay humble without situations to keep her humble. You read biographies of certain people of faith, and they never seem to mention the negative side of life, so it can leave you thinking that there is something wrong with you, because you’re not “as strong” as they seem to be. That’s just not the sort of thing you write in books, you know. I told her that she has already reached the strength she’s looking for – because each time she seems to fall, she turns to Jesus. HE is her strength. Our strength is found in our weakness.

Heroes used to be people whom everyone else thought had everything together. Today, however, people expect their heroes to be honest about who they really are – but with the help of the Holy Spirit and others, TOGETHER stand up and help others stand up again. My historic idol has always been Joan of Arc. I want to go where no one has gone before and do what no one has done before. But it wasn’t until I recognized my own human weakness and focused on the grace of God was I able to become a hero to others. Until then, I could only present theories, and needless to say, without much fruit. It has been an anchor for me to hear people say, “thank you for your honesty. Now I know I’m not alone and how I can deal with my situation”, and one response was: “By surrender we win the victory” – yeap, that’s the idea. We surrender first to God in all things, then we receive strength to withstand the enemy, and as Brandon put it in his blog, we begin to recognize “God’s hidden wisdom.”

I’m so excited about God’s faithfulness and wisdom. He truly is sovereign, all-powerful, all-knowing – He is OTHER. His ways and thoughts are higher than ours, “thank God”!

Latest News> In the meantime, I have gotten closer to receiving official permission to get a job in Germany. There is a company waiting to hire me. This shouldn’t take more than a couple more weeks. This is a big answer to prayer! Thank you for your continued prayer support.

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Official and Open Crap-Slinging March 6, 2008

Filed under: Amber,Bible,Missions,News,Religion — amberglory @ 7:12 pm
    Don’t you love it when people give the impression that things are always going GREAT! Everything is AWESOME all the time! It’s just Heaven on Earth, what can I s-a-y-h-a-y? Even King David experienced major lows and let everyone know about it. Yeah, been kind of l-o-w lately.

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Firstly, there are things happening thousands of miles away from me with people I care deeply about – and I can’t just hop into the car and go see them for the weekend to be there for them. I have to remind myself that they are proud of me for being obedient to the Lord and fulfilling His mission where I am. Otherwise, I would be fearful of them thinking that I don’t care about them, because we have devoted our lives to another country. We are truly blessed to have family who accepts the weird and crazy lifestyle we’ve chosen – or I should say – has been chosen for us by you know who.

    Secondly, I’m not the only thing that’s been l-o-w lately. The exchange rate has been horrific! We are downsizing – once again – whoop-tee-doo! Most likely to an itsy-bitsy-teeny-weeny-yellow-poka-dot apartment on the 5th floor without an elevator. But we aren’t the only ones. There are soooooo many missionaries who are having difficult times due to the US Dollar losing its value. My pastor’s wife, Debbie, has been encouraging me while reading my emails of dissapointment, discouragement, and well, quite honestly, derangement. People raise millions of dollars per day for ‘good’ causes. But churches are cutting missions support left and right, due to lack of funds (um, in the right place), and people who actually have some money to give decide to upgrade their comforts first – hey, I’ve done it too!, so there’s no throwing stones. But it IS an epidemic.

      And well, I used my state of wallowing in the muck to write a song called “Where’s my Medication!?!”. Had no idea these times could be so useful – ha!

    Check this out:

    Romans 8:

    27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. – He put me in my place and showed me myself; I realized that I was self-righteous (like Job), cuz I thought “things shouldn’t be this way for me.”
    28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. – no matter where the hardships come from, He is making sure He will be glorified in the end and that we are conformed more into his image.
    29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son… um, I could get real deep here, but let’s just say “wow!”
    30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified…

    31 What then shall we say to these things? – sufferings of this present time – If God is for us, who can be against us?
    32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?
    33 Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies.
    34 Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. – I always struggled with this till lately. I always thought that if JESUS is praying for me, why is all this crap happening to me? Jesus’ prayers are perfect, right? He never misses the mark, right? This would mean that God is either ignoring Jesus’ prayers or not answering some of them. Jesus wants what is “best for me”, so that is what He is praying for – OR – it would mean that Jesus is praying perfectly in line with the will of the Father, so the Father is answering every single one of ’em. Sooo…. His idea of what is “best for us” is different than our idea. I trust that God is keeping everything in check.
    35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? – No matter what happens, or doesn’t, HE LOVES ME. I couldn’t ask for more.

    37 No, in all these things IN these things. God never promised immunity! we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
    38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers,
    39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. – I am His forerver

    2. Corinthians 1:
    3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

    So, be generous and comfort others who are going through bad times. In all these years and having experienced such hurt, rejection and distress- when I have turned from looking at myself and focused again on the faithfulness and justice of God (everything he does or allows is right and holy and has a righteous reason) and have given of myself to others for His sake, I have conquered (yet not I, but Christ in me).

So, I boast in my weakness!!!!!!!! Yeah, eat your heart out, I’m weak!

2. Corinthians 12:
9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

  • If you don’t like this truth, maybe you’ve got a self-righteous pride issue just like the rest of us. – Gotcha!
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    Burying the Hammer January 18, 2008

    Filed under: News — amberglory @ 5:07 pm
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    Ever feel like things could be different if YOU were different?

    A few years ago I threw a lot of “what if’s” into the sea- literally. I wrote down a bunch of “what if this or that happens” on a sheet of paper and threw it into the body of water surrounding our city. (I guess that would make me a litter-bug; please don’t tell anyone.) In spite of this decisive action not to think irrationably about things beyond my control, every now and then the question of “what if” shows its ugly head. Ugh!

    Lately, I’d been internalizing (without recognizing what I was doing at first) how “if” I were different, maybe this situation I am facing wouldn’t be an issue. “If” I just wouldn’t be myself, maybe any and all awkward moments could be avoided. Had I chosen a different route, I wouldn’t be where I am… had I just kept my mouth shut, we wouldn’t be having this conversation… had I only seen things differently at that time, I wouldn’t have led someone to believe what they do… had I, had I, had I just…

    Everyone knows that if you internalize long enough, you end up vomiting your emotions on someone. And, usually, in my case, my husband is on the receiving end. Like umpteen times before, he prayed words that shook me out of my misery. This time, it was “Lord, help her stop condemning herself”. That’s it! I was beating myself over the head with a hammer of self-condemnation. What a trap. One thing always leads to another, and I was being led into discouragement – for what?!? Time to bury the hammer!

    So, that’s what I did – but this time, I didn’t throw one into the sea, or even the pond around the corner. I just asked the Lord to forgive me for taking a yoke upon myself that wasn’t mine to carry, put my trust in his sovereignty (you know, he really is big enough to take care of stuff), and turned up my nose to lies based on vain imaginations.

    Do you need to bury a hammer?

     

    Butterfly Tatoos December 17, 2007

    Filed under: News — amberglory @ 5:27 pm

    iwashere2.jpgWe made it home safe and sound. Still jet-lagging like crazy!

    Since our round-trip flight was London to L.A. and back, we had to fly back to L.A. to get home. So, we thought we might as well take advantage of that and see Hollywood. Although we were somewhat “underwhelmed” with the overall look of L.A., we had a great time.

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    I had one wish – just one. I thought it would be great to see Katharine von Drachenberg, a.k.a. Kat von D from L.A. Ink – one of the greatest tatoo artists around. (Her dad is a German, born in Argentina and ex-missionary to Mexico). Come to find out, her parlor was just a couple of blocks away from where we were staying at the Backpacker Hotel. Since they constantly get bombarded with tourists wanting their picture taken, we decided to play it cool and stay outside and keep the excitement amongst ourselves. To prove I was there, however, notice the exquisite tatoo Brandon blessed me with. Sorry to dissapoint anyone, but we didn’t get a real tatoo.

    When seeing her at the shopping center the next day, I just sat a few feet away and stared at her – like some teenager infatuated with a celebrity. I cracked myself up!

    This was, of course, just one hightlight of our trip. If we got to see YOU, that was just as much a highlight.

     

    On the Road Again November 6, 2007

    Filed under: News — amberglory @ 10:40 pm

    Haven’t posted in quite a while – had the concert (which went great! – thanks to all of you who prayed for me!), then immediately had to pack for moving, then unpack, then get on a plane to the states. I will post more when I get back into my routine in Stralsund.

    We are having an awesome time here in CA and AZ. What an experience!!! The Dream Center and every other part of the trip are just confirmations of so many things for us. It was GREAT spending time with our pastors, Jeff and Debbie Heck, and we miss them already (just said goodbye yesterday).

    The outreaches, ministry, etc. we’ve been involved in were a great learning experience, even though it’s nothing we haven’t done before. We’ve just been so blessed by the people’s receptivity and also the energy and focus the leaders of the Dream Center and Phoenix First have. They are truly an example to the body of Christ.

    It’s blistering hot here in AZ which is really a bonus for us, since our summer in Germany hasn’t been as warm as usual, so we’re also enjoying some rays and maybe even get to take a tan back with us to Germany – ahhhh. I worship the “son”.

    I look forward to sharing pictures and adventures with you in December when I get back home. In the meantime, we need traveling grace – these long bus and plane rides aren’t exactly the best for the spine and muscles, so I’ve been regularly taking prayer and bayer :-).

    Thank you all for your prayers and support,
    Amber

     

    How Rich or Poor Are You? October 1, 2007

    Filed under: News — amberglory @ 8:51 am
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    I found this website recently and thought I’d share it with you. Just click below and find out some very interesting facts about yourself.

    Click Here…If I could just get some more money….

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    Have a great day today!

    “…in all things give thanks”

     

    yippee! September 12, 2007

    Filed under: News — amberglory @ 5:12 pm

    I’ll be having my first concert in the south part of Germany on Oct. 6th!

    A dear friend of ours, Geri Groetzinger, has given me this opportunity. Surrounding churches will be invited, and I’m excited to be able to be a blessing.

    Jesus came to HEAL THE BROKENHEARTED. That’s what I’m aiming for that nite.

    So, keep me in mind and in your prayers.

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